My goal over this last year was to post once or twice weekly and up until last month I did fairly well at that.
So what happened?
The pause. That’s what happened.
Suddenly my inspiration went silent, my creativity flew the coop, and those sparkly little idea bubbles stopped popping out of my head.
I watched this process happen with my scientific observational eye. I rationalized that nobody would notice (they did). I told myself I’d get back to it next week (I didn’t). I wondered if I should just chuck it all (I didn’t want to, really). I got stuck in the spinning of interpretation.
Does this happen to you? Does inspiration and motivation sometime seem to dry up overnight?
It did feel like the motivation fairy simply turned off the switch. One day I’m happily interested, invested and creative. The next I’m finding dust bunnies more attractive than my business.
What the heck happened? And where is that dang switch so I can turn the inspiration and motivation back on?
Then, it occurred to me that the switch is simply in neutral – I am pausing and percolating.
Is this a problem needing to be solved, or a moment to honor and nurture?
A bit of both I think.
Overall, persistence has not been my strongest suit. Previously when my motivation waned I have changed jobs, closed businesses, and moved cities. While that is not inherently bad, and has brought good results overall, it’s not always the solution.
I can feel the seeds of something new starting in this fertile, sacred moment of pause. I can feel the pleasure of a new conversation beginning to take shape. I am noticing a course correct happening, but still in motion.
So, how do I honor this pause, while not allowing it to needlessly derail me?
I’m working on this. This is a question in progress and I want to hang out and spend some time here and play in the pause, while not allowing it to signal an all out cease and desist.
That’s our conversation for now. The pause.
What happens when you have a pause? Is it a problem to plow through? Is it a sacred moment to nurture? I most definitely want to hear what you think, so please leave a comment.